and i must post something here before i eventually let my procrastination turn into extreme laziness, for extreme laziness turns into forgetfulness and abandonment.
as of now, im trying to hold a bar of chocolate between my upper and lower set of teeth while my left and right digitals are busily typing this thing. im eating chocolates for the reason that im inlove with chocolates and that it makes me hyper to make this entry. but then again, its not helping me with my weight. but that's not my concern right now. (infact, about a minute ago i marched my way towards the refrigerator to munch a bag of corn chips. pig. i know.) my real concern is for the chocolate to work its charm on making me calm and push away the bad vibes in life. earlier this night, i heard my grandma talking to somebody in the phone about my college plans. my problem: im still having a dilemma of what course to take. i dislike my previous course, im still hesitant of the course im going to take up this june, and im not even enrolled yet okey. but here's what is clear to me right now. i have a picture of what im going to be in my brain and i think taking up the course im choosing to learn this school year is gonna be my first step in painting that picture. (and may God help me to paint it fully.) you see, im not really good in AC, i suck at it big time. and honsetly in my second semester of my 1st year in college, i havent absorbed and fully processed a single topic inside my head and if im gonna return to it this year, i think id be lost. for my current option, linguistics, i hope it'll play well and that my parents would support me with it. i figured out that somehow i can see that all my family's has figure out is that me taking the shot and hitting bull's eye. but im thinking differently. right now, im in the stage of taking a shot and see whether i could make it or not. i think life isnt about making your life all assured but its about trying your best, making mistakes, living it the way you want it while handing all the assurance to the Man above. and i maybe about to make a mistake of choosing this course but hey, let me, everybody is entitled to make mistakes. its the main reason why we learn. i dont wanna study about numbers and puke it all my life. i wanna learn. but then i dont wanna brag about to other people about my dreams. cause you see, im still in the stage of picturing it. i dont want people to steal away my peaceful foundation cause it might crumble. i dont want people to spread it around like plague while im still in my first step of building it. my brain is frowning upon the strange logic that my family is questioning my decision of me changing my course but at the same time blabbing about it saying im gonna make it through my current choice and that im really good at it. im thankful about them having this big faith on me but, maybe im not in favor of people speaking highly of things which are not even done yet. i dont want them to blab all around about me cause i dont want people to expect something good about me cause i just might just disappoint them. cause there is no assurance here on earth. some plans work, some plans dont. only God knows. and though ive figured that out, i admit im aware i have fear of not being assured. but hey im willing to take the risk. or so what i thought.
wow, who wouldve thought chocolates could make you reflect stuffs like that too? well, i must say my thanks to my dad then for bringing a whole lot of 'em. yep. dad's home. he's been here for about three weeks already. he shouldnt have been home til last week, but last may 13 while we were celebrating our fiesta here in our lil village, a very sad news came to us. my dad's father; my grandfather, had passed away. that caused dad to take flight immediately. we stayed in his hometown for a week. though the whole event weve attended was cause by a misfortune, it somehow cause a bridge for a family reunion in my dad's side. i once again saw my cousins and here are some pictures of my week long stay in Tandag:
and my next stroll was with era and marjorie. (memory lane: we also did this last October!) we spent our time chatting up in the boulevard, we ate some barbecue, walked around town and grab some smoothies.
i also went to the beach with fam
and just 3 days ago, me, una, danette, mariella, mia, ronica and jeoffrey lounged at una's place for a movie marathon. later on, i grabbed some smoothies with these guys
here's a pic of me being all inlove with my nails the other day
and oh, i had a sing a long hour with mimi and bruce last april too! (see, i procrastinated last month so i forgot writing an entry about it. that night was soooo much fun)
okey bloggy, that was a lot. my post is so long its now 12:59am of june 1. lol srsly.
-geianne
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