NVM i'll find someone like you

I still remember the very first time I had a proper encounter with you; it was on a Thursday night after our short class in Logic when I was heading to the main stairs, looking for my new found friends to back me up with my PE attire against the chances of me being scolded by the guards about the uniform policy. You were walking with a friend at that moment and I was just supposed to carry on when you suddenly smiled and bade me goodbye. I was obviously puzzled at that moment but I replied and attempted to look as if there wasn’t a pandemonium of butterflies inside my stomach. You see, though we were in the same class, I never expected to have any involvement with you other than the possibilities of us being grouped together in a future activity in where you would hand me glue and never talk to me like ever. Never did I think I had the chance to know the one my eyes had been very fond of since the very first day; not since I mouthed you the wrong answer when our Prof asked you about a certain question about a certain point a line lies in the Cartesian plane; I never really thought you had the intentions of knowing me after that little misfortune in calculus class. But you did.

We had our little talks even when I try not to sound too interested to mask the giddiness I felt whenever I was around you. I had to keep my cool to not bring awkwardness and maintain the new friendship. But I won’t deny I almost felt hopeful when you sat with me at the back of the classroom during our not-so-favorite subject. And when we were at a friend’s house and you found out about Michael Buble’s Everything in my phone’s playlist and how we sang with it like its our secret song. Or was I the only one who gave it a special something? Well, who was I kidding anyway, I would never have a chance with your cute boyish smile and smoldering glances. I planted my feet strongly on the ground to not get swept away.

I was getting used to it even during our classes ended. On the future scenarios, I imagined that my eyes will still be doting on to you even when we would pass by on each other on the hallways and then you’d smile at me, but no, as dramatic as it sounds, fate is too selfish to let me be friends with you. Or was it me and my clumsy hands? Lucky I was that you took my evaluation for me and I was able to enroll myself this semester, but a mischief to you when we found out I was the reason why you lack a grade in a certain subject because I happen to forget to write your name, you of all people, in a project you worked so hard to finish. Such an epic little mishap and for long it would be in my conscience. I apologized and sent you a text message but I clearly understood how it went. Now I bade for your sweet smile and our little talks and my small hope and the earned friendship. Funny how we were brought to where the story really started--your misfortune and my embarrassment.


-geianne

sudden questions and frustrations

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-geianne

the band of my teeny bopper days

Okay, so amidst of the problems that’s going on with my life right now, I’m still trying to grab every opportunity to enjoy life, so when I heard that the Jonas Brothers, the band of my teeny bopper,  days was going to have their concert here in cebu, classifying my feelings as a form of excitement was a major understatement. I was very desperate to have the ticket and so I bought it. nope, unfortunately, I was not so fortunate with my monthly allowance so I just got the bronze ticket f magmag who was also a fan of my band.

Oct. 20, 2012 came, the day of the concert. Era and I decided to go to the venue for like as early as 3:00pm so that we could snoop around for the happenings in Waterfront. Of course the hotel was huge and we took some pictures in the lobby and even in the comfort room while waiting for the Jonas Brothers to arrive, but we became hopeless when there was actually no sign of the brothers yet so by 5pm we decided to line up for the opening of the door that would lead us to see the concert.

Needless to say, there were lots of people who lined up with us; kids, teenagers, and there were even moms who were chaperoning them and using their motherly powers to get their children on the lines first. A lot was pissed and hungry (especially me) during the whole wait but the suffering ended when the concert doors officially opened at like 8:30-ish pm.

Era and I found our places in the balcony, enough to see the figures of the local musicians doing the semi-opening number. Later on, Anna Maria Perez de Tagle, the girl buddy of the main antagonist in Camp Rock did the real opening number. I know she’s a Filipina but I was kinda shocked when I heard her speak Tagalog and also sang OPM songs like First Romance, Torete, and Hinahanap-hanap Kita. It was almost 10pm and after singing her two self-composed songs, she officially called out the Jonas Brothers and everyone in the place was chanting “Jonas! Jonas! Jonas!” and I was just there beside Era, and all I could ever think was ‘oh gosh oh gosh im gonna see the band of my teeny bopper days! Right here, right now, at this very moment’.

The dimmed lights turned bright and Nick, Joe, and Kevin came out of the stage oh gosh I still cant believe im typing my Jonas brothers concert experience oh gosh yea, they came out of the stage and I saw them came out of the stage right before my eyes, even when they’re not that close to me, but still they are breathing the air I was breathing it made me feel so ASDFSKDFSADFJSD! The crowd went crazy and I don’t know whether they greeted us or they directly sang When You Look Me In The Eyes, because that certain time, I was in my own world, thinking how many times I’ve abused the replay button of the WYLMITE music video and how many hours ive spent on Disney Channel just to catch that music video and how many times I’ve listened at it in their self-title album which I have, is now performed by them live, infront of me. Like in those years, ofcourse I had daydreams of watching them personally but ive always known I have no chance I mean, just come to think of it, they are living in Hollywood and im just here in the other side of the globe wishing for them and that I thought that’d always be my status but no, because at that moment, I was seeing them live. You know that feeling where you just go numb and you cant even let your tears escape even when you’re drowned out by a certain emotion? We usually feel it when we’re overly depressed over something, but last night was the complete opposite. Like my tears were at the tip of my lids but I was just too filled with happiness and excitement that I cant feel any other emotions at all! And at the second part of WYLMITE I was able to come back to my senses and I sang along with them and the feeling was just soooo amaaaazing!

The Jonas Brothers sang a lot of songs in which the crowd didn’t know about, in which I happen to know by heart! I thought I already forgot the lyrics but when they played it I was able to sing it on the top of my lungs that ive received looks from the girls beside me and Era but then too bad that time I didn’t care if I looked like an idiot or that you guys didn’t know the songs that made me fan girl over them throughout the years!
Some of the songs they performed were:

Hold On – they kinda used a different tune in this one almost didn’t recognize it!

That’s Just the Way We Roll – after singing this song I felt like ive lost 75% of my voice!

Give Love A Try - I love how they were able to include it even when it was from their show J.O.N.A.S. (nick’s song for Penny) I was crazy over this song and my bb sang it perfectly.

Turn Right - I could still hear the echoes of Joe’s voice singing its chorus, its like what I watched in their concert videos and I heard it live and he sang it ahmazing!

Fly With Me – I can still remember the way sang “peter pan and wendy turned out fine..”

Still In Love With You - I cant believe I was able to hear these parts, live: “We had fun under the sun, and when winter came she’d be my angel, we were so inlove..” and “I don’t know what hurts worse baby, seeing you with him or being alone on my own; I know he doesn’t love you baby not like I did oh what’s the point, you’re not listenin”, ive been replaying that part in their videos and CD over and over and nick’s voice is just so shmexy, they sing it good even when live. just exactly like in the cd oh gosh except that it was live oh gosh.

Hello Beautiful – it was just sooo perfect like a thousand times than in the album srsly I cant even asdfghjkl especially when Nick replaced “California” with “Cebu”, so it went like “Hello Beautiful, how’s going? I hear its wonderful in Cebu..”

I Gotta Find You
Much Better
Who I Am
BB Good
Goodnight and Goodbye

They also sang:
We Found Love by Rihanna
We Are Young by Fun.

And their new songs:
Let’s Go
First Time – where kevin has actually a part in singing it loud!
Wedding Bells - a personal song written by nick dedicated to somebody whom we pretend we do not know of even when we do

And ofcourse their famous hits in which the crowd really enjoyed singing:
When You Look Me In The Eyes - like I said earlier, not in a million year ive thought I would hear them and see them perform this live! Ive tell you about my emotions over this song already!

Paranoid – heard them play this one during soundcheck even when we were still outside the concert doors haha

LoveBug – the crowd knew the lyrics by heart so Joe was like letting us sing especially when in the chorus. Hnnngz nick’s voice when he started singing “Called you for the first time yesterday…” and when joe sang the first “now im speechless, over the edge and just breathless..” and kevin was rockin his guitar during the rock acoustic part urghhh

SOS – this was like the first song that JB was recognized for and everybody was just rockin out while singing this one then after, clever band left us out for a few minutes, letting us chant “we want more! We want more!” A lot actually thought it was the final song and some of them were heading out already and then I was like “no that’s not possible they didn’t sing the ‘im hot, you’re cold..’” and then the jobros went up to the stage singing Burnin up rockin the venue once again.

Burnin Up – hot hot hot I tell you! Especially when they returned on stage and sang this immediately and everybody was just like slippin into the lava and burnin up. My ears went crazy when in the middle of the song nick was like “c’mon girl..” and how he pronounce the word ‘baby’ like ‘babeyy’.

I wasn’t able to remember if this was all of it because there were times I zoned out in the plasma screen then to their figures then to the plasma screen again, then back to their singing figures once again, especially at nick because its like I tweet to him and I’m always joking like he’s going to be the father of my kids and I just cant believe that it was actually nick jonas standing before my eyes and inside my head I was like ‘that’s really nick jonas’ and then I tell era something like ‘that’s really nick jonas’ and she was also like ‘yea, that’s really nick Jonas.’ Oh gosh.

Asdfghjkl ofcourse and ive seen the famous Jonas Brothers pose where they place joe in the middle then nick and kevin would be both rockin out their guitars and then they walk together a little and they make history by doing it and that it was beyond words to see it live! After making the crowd heat up with their last song they did their roll calls and just immediately left and still left the crowds wanting for more and im just soooo happy I the amount of my ticket wasn’t actually wasted!

After that, Era and I went to the lower box and took pictures and finally grabbed our dinner at mcdonald’s while I was also using the privilege to connect to their public wifi to tweet out my feelings. We decided to go home at like 12:30am after eating and hailed a taxi and until now my inner fan girl is screaming that it was one of the best nights of my life!

-geianne (Typed in MS Word Oct. 22, 2012)

31-day drabbles

Hey there bloggy, How’s it been? I know its been months since ive last updated you. Life just kinda caught up you know--school, people, friends and family. With lots of drama involved. There’d been unforgettable moments during those whirlwind of everyday happenings in my life ofcourse, some were happy, some were just really dreadful. These past few weeks, im experiencing the latter. It started out with my parents’ phone call just after my departmental exam in accounting. (yup, we’re currently having our semestral break and its not supposed to be stressful but to me, it is. It really is.) so anyway, aside from the fact that I consider phone calls as one of the major hassles in life one person could encounter daily, (I appreciate the essence of telephones but really, hearing the voice from another line is just awkward and annoying, especially if its not really as important like me letting them buy food or any other requests made by yours truly. Maybe its also connected to the fact that I don’t like it when people just talk and talk and talk without seeing them act upon it or I don’t know, im not just into phone calls.) anyway, as ive typed earlier, I have no fondness in phone calls and my mom and dad telling me to stop my studies due to some financial crap certainly didn’t help me like it. Though ive been posting what-its about how I dislike school very much and that academic activities make my life less appealing than it actually is, nobody wants to not get a diploma and graduate. So while my dad was in the middle of his epic explanation I immediately cut the call in proceeded to the cinema to watch a movie (courtesy of my good blockmate leo, who paid for like 18 movie suckers like me). Though the movie was actually fun and I was able to laugh out loud with it, it wasn’t able to take away my problem so later on, when the day ended, I became a lot more problematic. After like a day of deciding I wouldn’t quit school no matter what happens because im supposed to be a stubborn stubborn child, I sent my mom some very-direct and not-so-nice textmessages, (which I assume she also forwarded to my dad), they made a compromise in which I sort of agreed at, too—to lessen my study load this second semester and to find another dormitory with a lesser monthly rate. So here I am, in a little room for two, on top deck (well, im currently typing this in the lower bunk since my roommate, whom I haven’t met yet, has been in her hometown ever since ive transferred), with no wifi connection (which means I wont be able express my daily fan girling an more towards my local celebrity crush who has been my source of daily joy these past few months), no air conditioning system (right now, my sinusitis is starting to show up once again, urgh) with a lesser space and a public comfort room. I am really very depressed about my situation but hey, beggars cant be choosers. And I’ve strived this kind of living when I was still in my first year in college, same semester. (oh gosh, I have this feeling that 2nd semesters are not just charms in my life).  

Okay, as much as I’d like to rant about how unfortunate I am so that incase a good-looking rich business man with the same age as mine would stumble here, he might ask my hands in marriage and take away all of my sadness, I dont wanna dwell on the depressing events. Hence, here are photographs that represent the fun side of my life. 

This was when our career guidance seminar in USC south campus.

This photograph was taken the afternoon after the career guidance seminar, when andrea transferred to my former dorm to be roommates with me. Our friends helped us vacate her stuffs, which was like a lot. Later that night, she treated us at Mang Inasal for dinner. Though she talks a lot more than the usual amount of talks im used too when inside the room, she was fun to be with.

Moments of vanity during our free time! With Julie, Mabeth, and Christ.

A pose with some of my blockmates during PE.

Though its just a pic of Double Chocolate smoothie from Coffee bean, this was a representation of a fun gossip night with friends with one guy blockmate on the hot seat. Kim has the picture of the people in her BB.

During our last class in A503 with our teacher, Ms. Soria. Team  BSAct-Block C (1st Sem) 2012-2012. Im happy with this group of people even when my grades right now in rolling in the deep. (Oh gosh I don’t even know if im gonna pass all of my subjects this sem.)

YEP! I watched the band of my teenie bopper days! Imma tell you about the whole experience in a separate special update! Eeeep! Got the ticket from Magmag during the submission of our paper in literature, after a sleepless night!

Our friends usually visit us in our room and it had been terrific until one day, the owner who just came back from the US, I think, stopped us from our tracks when we were still about to get in the elevator and asked us for additional payment to whoever would wanna hang out in the room. Bummer.

Right after our departmentals in AC503.

Us excited for Leo’s movie treat!

At J Center Mall. This was after Kim’s Birthday treat in Mattias. Some of my blockamtes decided to watch movies and some of us (Andrea, Mabeth, Earl, and I) snuck out early to play Kinect and sing at Song Hits hehe.

There was also this unforgettable project we have for our CAT500 in which we made a video about information technology, and I was grouped with awesome people and my crush! I was able to know him better because of it and he was nice playful andand and maybe, he’d be one of those guys id be forever enchanted meeting with. His eyes are just so captivating and his smile is really cute and I like staring at him and that’s it, there’s nothing more and just im happy. We had our moments like:

-When we were talking in Wrocklage after our PE class and I asked him whom he wanna end up with in our lil production and he said he’d rather have the director instead (and guess who the director was. Hahaha. psssh.)
-And when we were talking about how I wouldn’t easily say yes if a guy I like would court me then he asked “What if it was me?”.
-And when he was changing his shirt during our video shoot and the door was kinda open and there was this mirror which let me actually see a bit of him and I just zoned out and he peeked in the mirror and saw me looking at him while he was about to change his clothes and he was like “imma close this cause geianne is glancing at me.”
-And when we were having our snack after we did our group project in PE and he while he was looking around I snatched a bit of his food and he caught me.

Those times left me speechless.  And during our last class in our last subject, even when we were having our exam, I spent more time staring at his back than thinking whether the answers I have were correct cause I doubt we’d still be classmates on the next sem. LOL. Hence, Im publicly gonna announce that im going to dedicate Sparks Fly by Taylor Swift and Everything by Michael Buble to him (the latter is our common fave song.)  No one reads these posts anyway. I was supposed to post a blurred picture of him, which I personally took when he was semi-dozing off in the jeep after filming our project, here but then the .jpg file was corrupted. Like seriously. And nope, I don’t wanna steal photos from his facebook. Haha


-geianne (Typed in MS Word Oct. 21, 2012)