i'd go back to december all the time

its odd how a year could do some changes in your life even though you dont seem to notice that it gradually alter day by day.

if this year were last year, i wouldve been a bit tired from the fun competition i attended in baguio together with my science investigatory project teammates Karen and Jason. i shouldve been laughing along with my high school chums, giddy about our class' chris cringle and would be in a great battle with my own head on what to give my girls and where i would get money, and even dread upon what to wear!

if this were last year, id happily go to school everyday and snoop around during my free time to catch a glimpse of my secret high school crush and even talk to him.
or id eat and sing Back To December together with Bonzkie and Mia and Shareiz and Marjorie and Cindy.

if this were last year, id be worried on how to answer the moving exam our teacher got for us in calculus.

if this were last year, id be pesking mom for a gift and we'd be decorating the house with christmas decorations in which i wouldnt volunteer to put on but gets jolly anyway when she would start hanging them all over the house.

if this were last year, id be writing this entry inside my room and not in this lil apartment space. id be telling you about the spirit of christmas being back again and complain about how impossibly hot the weather is and id find the emotions of people radiating around me as weird and comforting.

but this is not last year anymore. time went away and i dont know where it went. it felt like everyday is passing by like a blur though i try to calculate on how to live every passing hour. and the only thing im dreading to get as my christmas present is to get beack home and get the same christmas feeling i had last year with my chums.
(though id gladly accept if you send daniel padilla and logan lerman and other hot guys i adore in a big box on my doorstep)


just trying to lighten up,
geianne